Editor’s Note: One of the graces throughout Joel’s diaconate discernment has been the opportunity to become friends with the wives of the other discerning men. One, Charlotte Hunkele, has become a spiritual mentor; she has a gift to articulate and explain the faith in such beautiful ways. During one of our retreat weekends, Charlotte shared some lovely words. I found them so beautiful, I asked her to share. Enjoy! – Lisa Schmidt
Years ago, after having my fifth baby, I bought a recording of lullabies that played the sound of a heart beat throughout the songs. It was a soft, yet strong, steady beat and it seemed to soothe my baby when I played it for her. Many times I lingered in the nursery listening to this heartbeat and watching her fall to sleep, and I wondered if it really did mimic the womb’s environment.
I could never be sure if it did, but I was sure that my little girl depended upon me totally during those nine months and perhaps the sound of my heart beating was her reassurance that I was always there for her.
Jesus asks us to depend on Him as the bread of life; He asks us to give Him all of our troubles and worries and to put ourselves completely in His hands. How difficult this is especially as we struggle to be independent, self-sufficient and most of all, in control of our lives. The truth is that we must depend on Him.
I think it would be beautiful if we could accomplish this in the way that my baby depended on me from the moment of her conception. She never doubted that I would take care of her, in fact, it never crossed her mind; she floated around perfectly content in my womb. If we could remember our own experience, we might be able to understand what it means to be totally dependent on God.